Just Beyond

Written by RJ's mama

Just beyond the horizon, where the earth meets the sky
For that is where you’re home at last, flying ever so high
Just beyond that sunset resting upon the sea
Looking into its radiance, I feel you looking back at me
Just beyond the silvery moon, there’s a bright and shining star
I feel I can almost reach you, you’re so close, but yet so far
Just beyond the sunlight, too bright for me to see
The angelic realms of heaven, is where you wait for me
Just beyond the tears that fall, ever for you day and night
A little further than I can reach, you are just beyond my sight
Just beyond a mother’s love, so deep within her heart
She’ll forever spend eternity, with her child who had to depart
Just beyond my broken spirit, my soul cries out for you
Like the roses in the garden, every morning, kissed by the dew
Just beyond the memories ,of a child so true and fair
Heaven is a better place, now that you are there.

Copyright ©2006 Monica Davis

Written December 31, 2005
In Memory of my son RJ
4/17/86 - 5/24/04
Brutally murdered

RJ's Message

Written by RJ's mama

When at my grave to visit me, know that I'm not here.
This is but your memory that you hold very dear.
I am but your angel now to keep you from your fear.
Know that I am with you, know that I am near.
You will see me in the clouds in God's great sky of blue.
I am there all the while silently watching over you.
Look for me everywhere, you just might see my face.
For I am but your angel now by God's true loving grace.
You will see my eyes in the sky of blue.
I will kiss your cheek in the morning dew.
I will whisper secrets in the gentle wind.
For I am still with you, I am still your friend.
The fate I suffered that tragic night,
You carry with you now, for I've gone into the light.
Keep your memories of me, hold them very dear.
For I am all around you, for I am still here.

Copyright ©2004 Monica Davis 


Written by RJ's mama~July 2004
In loving memory of my son R.J. Davis
brutally murdered May 2004

 

Too Little Too Late

Written by RJ's Aunt Mona

When you were here I was too busy to socialize
Now you’re gone and I have come to realize
I should have put my insecurities aside
And loved you while you were still alive
I loved you so much, from the time you were born
Though you really couldn’t have known
Because I have always been so withdrawn
If only I had known your time would be so limited
I would have been there more and visited
I have never felt a pain like this
What was once my heart is now an abyss
You were not my child
But my heart can’t tell
Knowing how you left this world
Just hurts like hell
Your mom is in agony, dreading each coming day
Wishing the nightmare would just go away
There are no words to be said, nothing I can do
For the only thing that will make her happy
Is to be with you
Jake feels lost with out your guidance
But the music goes on, you will never be silenced
Your dad still cries and misses your laughter
He remembers the before, but is consumed by the after
Ricky is still saddened by his vision of you that day
That picture in his head will never fade away
Joey sure misses you
He mentions your name often
One thing is for sure
You will never be forgotten
Your friends still come and visit
Their pain is very real
They have lost a very dear friend
Pain and anger is what they feel
I often sit and wonder
What you went through that night
What were your thoughts
Before you went into the light
Did you say a prayer, or did you shed some tears
Did you go in peace, or did you go in fear
It’s been several months now, though I am still there
Wishing I could wake up from this awful nightmare
I ask myself, Is this real? Can it be true?
Who could do this to someone like you?
You were so bright, so loving and fun
Your life had only just begun
No marriage or kids, nor chance for a career
Why your life ended so soon is unclear
There is no reason, explanation, or understanding
Only hurt, anger and agonizing
Our lives have changed and nothing is the same
Oh how I wish you were back home again
When you came to me in a dream that night
You did it so I could make things right
You let me say I was sorry
So I wouldn’t have to worry
RJ, I miss you
RJ, I love you
Whether it be in a dream or in heaven
RJ, I can’t wait to see you again

Copyright ©2004 Ramona Gray

Written by R.J.'s Aunt Mona ~ December, 2004
~Thanks Sis for this beautiful tribute to my son, your nephew!!!~



Thank You Mona

As Sure As

Written by RJ's mama

As sure as the sun’s warmth grows cold
Those who are young must grow old.
By a terrible fate, you never got the chance
So now at the gates of Heaven you must dance.
As sure as the stars glisten in the dark of the night
One day we must all take that flight.
Though you treaded on disaster’s ground
A celestial peace you now have found.
As sure as the days grow longer
My love for you grows ever stronger.
You had to leave me far too soon
I still watch for you in the light of the moon.
As sure as the last time you walked through my door
The fate you suffered, you now suffer no more.
You walked out with your smiling face
You reside now in Heaven, filled with Gods’ grace.
As sure as each day you made me laugh
I no longer think of the future, I just dwell on the past,
Of the times we shared and the joys you brought
Of that horrible night and the evil you fought.
As sure as your laughter I so long to hear
For it was such sweet beautiful music to my ears.
As so was your voice and the kind things you said
But because of earth’s evil, now you are dead.
As sure as I lie in bed each night and cry
I didn’t want you to leave me, I didn’t want you to die.
Nor did you , you wanted so much to live
And in all of your kindness, you had so much to give.
As sure as you were brutally robbed of your life
I am haunted every day and every night,
With visions of the evil that betook you
And how someone could treat you that way, makes me blue.
As sure as you are Heaven’s brightest shining star
I must watch from down here and hope to see you afar.
I didn’t even get to say good-bye
I did not know that you were going to die.
As sure as I walk in the darkest depths of sorrow
I am here for today, knowing not of tomorrow.
One thing I do know, upon each waking day
You are not here with me, I wanted you to stay.
As sure as I know my life too is over now
But in a different way, the why and the how,
Why did you leave me to walk all alone
On this dreary path of life, for with you I would have gone.
As sure as your story will always be told
I know one day, I’ll see you at the Crossroads
As sure as the night turns to day
I love you, I miss you - Rest in Peace R.J.


Copyright ©2005  Monica Davis

Written in May of 2005
In Loving Memory of my son R.J. Davis
4/17/86 - 5/24/04 Brutally Murdered

I Wish I Couldn't Feel 

Written by RJ's friend Crystal

I wish I couldn't feel, so this pain would go away
and I wouldn't have to cry again today.
the sun never shines around here,
just the rain that falls like our miserable tears.
The consuming pain just crushes me at times,
emptiness leaves us all full of anger and questioning why.
Time doesn't heal, that is far from true,
with every day that goes by it's more time
since the last time I saw you,
and the yearning and pain grows stronger too.
Everywhere I look, I see your face,
you, my friend, can never be replaced.
I've forgotten how to smile and laugh,
I'm constantly dreaming and yearning for the past.
I use to think life was fine and swell,
now I think we're living in hell.
Nothing is as real as this pain I feel,
this can't be right, this can't be real.
Retaliation contemplation I'm on the verge,
don't even know who to go after, after all I've heard.
Praying to remember memories I might have forgot,
when you left it's like the world just stopped.
Everyday just seems the same,
and all of the guilty want none of the blame.
But rest assured justice will be served in your name.
I wish I couldn't feel, so this pain would go away,
and I wouldn't have to cry again today.

Copyright ©2005

Written by Crystal in memory of R.J.
November 2005



Thank You Crystal

SO MANY THINGS LEFT TO SAY

Written by RJ's friend Josh

I TALKED TO YOUR PARENTS THE OTHER DAY
NOW IT SEEMS REAL THAT YOU'VE GONE AWAY
NOW I FEEL A PAIN IN MY HEART EVERYDAY
THOSE WHO KILLED YOU SOON WILL PAY
MAYBE NOT HERE BUT ON JUDGEMENT DAY
LET THEM SUFFER THOUGH THEY MAY
MY MIND IS TRIPPIN IN ANGLES IN A WAY
THAT I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I COULD SAY
I MISS YOU RJ
SO MANY THINGS LEFT TO SAY

Written By: Josh Smith~R.J.'s friend

Thank You Josh

My letter to God

Written by RJ's friend Crystal

Dear God,
I don't mean to question you,
I've seen your footprints in the sand,
but I'd like to talk to you about your plan.
I think you might have made a mistake,
don't you know my friends were too young to take.
Their lives had only just begun,
they were too full of life to leave everyone.
And all us friends, we don't know how to take it,
and their families are barely makin’ it.
God I truly believe there was a little glitch,
someone interfered in your plan but it can be fixed.
You can turn back time, or just send them back,
give us more time with R.J. and Mack.
It's okay God we all make mistakes,
but this is a little too hard to take.
I guess this is foolish and useless too,
but I really don't know if you thought this one through.
I guess I have to accept that what's done is done,
and look to the future and prepare for what's to come.
Again I'm certainly not questioning you,
I guess I just can't believe it's true.
So if it really was a mistake,
please send them back there's no time to waste.
And if this was all a part of your plan,
I know there was only one set of footprints in that sand.
I know you were there to bring them back home,
and the angels were watching over them,
they were never alone.
Please forgive me, for things I might feel or say,
it's just so hard to miss them everyday.

Copyright ©2005

Written by Crystal
November 2005

Thank You Crystal

NEVER

Written by RJ's friend Jessica

Never a conversation to deep
we kept it simple
between you and me
Never a moment
of any fear
never a moment
causing a tear
Never a lie
between you and me.
Never a star
to far to see
Never any thoughts
caused this much pain
when so much is lost
so little remains
Never did I cry at night
missing you so much it hurts
Never did I understand
the meaning of dust to dirt.
Never did I say I love you
and meant it this much inside
Never Would I imagine
that you would soon die. 

R.I.P. FRIEND!!!

Written by RJ's friend Jessi
In July, 2004

Thank You Jessi

Thank You Jeri

A beautiful woman who lost

her son, Laquan far too soon

to murder.